Mourning in process

I am tired of pleasing you,
Tired of constantly thinking about us,
Tired of telling lies,
Tired of so-called sacrifice.

I am so scared of you,
Yes, scared!
Because you are judgmental,
Because of your disciplined life,
Because you think,
I should dispose-off my emotional side.

Sometimes I pity you,
For being so wise,
For thinking mistakes are like lies,
Impossible to hide in disguise.

I hate you,
For telling me, speak truth,
When I do, you don’t have the guts to accept,
You behave as if I have disappointed you again,
Committed a crime,
Oh! The bonding is lost,
I can see clearly from closed eyes.

So much for the love and care,
All these years,
You think I have changed,
Let’s talk and let me explain,
Before you dismiss me again,
Ridicule my explanations,
And say you will never love me again,
Let’s try to understand,
Before you quietly close the chapters,
Without clearing the air.